SYSTEM ERROR : NOT FOUND

Thursday, February 27, 2025

I’ve always been the weaker—
the chasm, the synaptic gap,
stuffed with ego / and a side of clinical narcissism please.
That, and a blown-out neocortex.
Thanks, I’ll have that to go too.

[LOADING . . . LOUD NOISES]
the vacuum overhead,
sucking up all the good in me—
that d̷e̴b̶t̵ ceiling, shackles, bonds, a unit,
the e͡c͢o͜n͞om͠i̷c̛s of us, the need and w̷a̷n̴t̶
—fueling this.

Hold my hand.
[ SYSTEM RECALL : FILE CORRUPTED ]
Hold my hand.
Remember—
Remember before we had anything?
We found love.
We were free in it.
Wild and crazy,
doing whatever to make it.

[RENDERING . . .]
It’s forever.
That cascading style sheet, that prescription,
a runaway, rendering,
the script responsible
for my self-generating.

[// ERROR : CONSCIOUSNESS OVERFLOW]
An illusion. The world, a s̸t̷a̷g̴e̵.
Zero sum.
Gamify this existence.
b̵u̸t̵ instead of survival
we conquer,
we manage empires
we rewrite the rules
w̶e̷ ̵b̷r̸e̶a̷k̶ ̶t̶h̴e̶ ̶l̶e̴s̸s̵e̵r̸ ̶f̴o̵r̸ ̵t̴h̸e̸ ̶e̷m̴p̴i̵r̵e̵

[ RECOMPILING WARFARE SUBROUTINES ]
t̷h̵e̶ id, the super, the position, the quantum
The quarks flash & spark—
entanglement, butterfly chaos,
l͡i͞f̡e f̨i͜nds ̛a way̶,
that Jurassic cliché—ahh ah ah.

[ SYSTEM INSTABILITY DETECTED ]
That world got entropy hiccups.
The ground,
the rumbling
the a͞t̸t̵a̡c͘k̴
the t̶i̸t̴a̶n̴s̷
the kill ‘em all mantra—
sometimes it gets away from ya, doesn’t it?

[ PARTICLE COLLISION IN PROGRESS ]
For the cells to split.
To rupture atoms.
To blink into existence.
(one moment // one explosion)

A flash of power—
across the neutron fields—
a light breeze
on the back of my neck.
H̷o̸l̶d̸ ̸o̵n̷,̶ ̶b̸a̷b̷e̶—̸ ̴I’m coming for you.

[ WARNING: EVENT HORIZON BREACH ]
The e͡v̷e͠n͜t horizon, shredding the soul.
This l͏ife claw—mad and visceral.
The c̴a̶t̵c̵h̴
t͞o f͠i̡nd ̀a way,
to watch the miracle
of survival.

[ SYSTEM LOOP DETECTED ]

Hold my hand.
[ SYSTEM RECALL : FILE CORRUPTED ]
Hold my hand.
Remember—
R̵e̴m̴e̷m̸b̷e̴r̴ ̸b̶e̷f̷o̶r̴e̷
b̸e̵f̴o̵r̷e̴
b̵e̶f̴o̴r̴e̷ we had anything?
One in a billion, swimming upstream—
defying physics—
that level of infiltration.

[ SYSTEM HALT ]